You're no good at lying, and I'm no good at comebacks

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 20:55:27 GMT

rawrxcore.

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Tue, 28 Jun 2005 18:16:24 GMT

d00d, no one comments anymore so i'm back to xanga primarily. kthnx.

♥

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 18:11:53 GMT

happy birthday to me. =)

i saw AJ last night. he got hotter. O.o

i love that kid.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 04:33:21 GMT

[xx] About You! [xx]

[x] What is your full name? Cerra Dawn Byrd
[x] What does everybody call you? Cerra or Cer
[x] When were you born? Edmond, Oklahoma
[x] What state do you live in? Oklahoma
[x] What state do you want to live in? Not Oklahoma
[x] What are your bad habits? chewing my nails, over-reacting
[x] How tall are you? 5'3"
[x] What color eyes do you have? hazel/green
[x] What color hair do you have? dark brown and red

[xx] What To Wear [xx]

[x] What name brands do you wear? hollister, american eagle
[x] Do you shop for clothes at Wal*Mart sometimes? sure
[x] What type of shoes do you prefer? converse or flip flops
[x] How many pairs of shoes do you own? 17
[x] Do you wear sunglasses? If so describe them. huge, pink, fun =)
[x] What jewlery do you wear, if any? earrings, necklaces, sometimes bracelets

[xx] What To Eat [xx]

[x] What food can you not live without? water. i know it's not food.
[x] What is your favorite hot dog condiment? ketchup
[x] What cereal do you normally eat? lucky charms
[x] Is your school food good? sometimes
[x] What's your favorite fast food place? mcdonalds =)
[x] What's your favorite sit down resturant? hmm... probably fridays

[xx] Friends [xx]

[x] Name your top five favorite guy friends. (FAVORITE?!)
1. MY BOYFRIEND!
2. Aidan
3. Ed
4. Nick I.
5. Nick H.
[x] Name your top five favorite girl friends. (and again, FAVORITE?!)
1. Kaylee
2. Liz
3. Ashley
4. KK
5. Lexi
[x] Who has the biggest mouth? me
[x] Who is the quiet mouse? none
[x] Who would bail you out of jail in a heartbeat? any of my friends
[x] Would you ever date one of your best friends? no.
[x] If so which one?
[x] Which one have you known the longest? Lexi

[xx] Music [xx]

[x] Name your top five bands.
1. Alkaline Trio
2. Bright Eyes
3. The Early November
4. The Faint
5. ----
[x] What's your favorite song of all time? It changes
[x] What's your favorite love song? I Love You Anyway - Aslyn
[x] What's your favorite hate song? You Outta Know - Alaniss Morisette
[x] Rock or rap? rock

[xx] Movies [xx]

[x] Name your top five movies.
1. The Notebook
2. Lion King
3. Legally Blonde
4. Napolean Dynomite
5. Anchorman
[x] What's your favorite movie genre? horror, comedy, chick flicks
[x] Who is your favorite actor? Johnny Depp
[x] Who is your favorite actress? Hmmm...Rachel McAdams
[x] What is your favorite movie of '04? The Notebook
[x] Do you wish to be an actress/actor? Not really

[xx] All Grown Up [xx]

[x] Do you want to get married? Yes
[x] If yes, to whom? AJ =X
[x] Do you want to have kids? Yes.
[x] If yes, how many? At least 2
[x] What do you wish to do when you get older? Be a lawyer. -shrug-

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 20:05:53 GMT

this has nothing to do with anything.

i am complicated.
i am random as shit.
i am really irked out by mice
but i have a guinea pig that i love
i love snakes
i can't live without eyeliner
i am not civil
i am immature
i complain too much
i drink a gallon of water everyday
when i don't have comments i get disappointed
i enjoy not having a lot of friends
but at the same time i hate it
i'd take my life for my friends
and i couldn't function properly without my boyfriend
/end entry

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 05:50:19 GMT

i really love my boyfriend.

seriously, i don't think he could be anymore perfect for me.

I love you AJ.

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 13:46:39 GMT

i'm having really weird dreams lately.

night before last i had a dream that the marines set AJ up with some girl named Jodi and we were talking about it through texting and writing, but the weird thing about it is, when i would write him it would start as a text, then be a letter, then i wrote it on my pants. i also got a yearbook from him that was pictures of him and the girl hanging out, there was something about concentration camps too.

last night i had a dream me and my grandma were going on a long trip somewhere, and there were snakes in her room while we packed the suitcase. they kept crawling into our clothes and stuff. some of them were nice but there was a black one that bit me, shrivled up, and died.

upon reasearch, snakes mean anything from death to new life. black snakes dying means sex, well really the male orgasm.

i have no idea whats going on.

I love you AJ =)

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 04:19:57 GMT

bah. i'm so bored with life.

lalalalalala.

later.

p.s. I love my boyfriend

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 02:08:26 GMT

i got my cartilage pierced... twice. check my xanga for the pictures.

here's my xanga

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 08:29:51 GMT

You know, I really don't understand some people.

They'll put you down and call your boyfriend a moron for dating you, then say whoever would date you is a moron, yet they can't even hold a steady relationship. I find it especially annoying when said person likes you and is jealous because you're already attached and can't date you. -annoyance- I just really don't get it. Then again, I guess I'll never understand people.

So tonight Aidan's over. He has been asleep for hours. -shrug-

Hmmm... what else to say... I don't know. -shrug-

11 days til AJ's home. =) I miss him. =(
12 days til I'm sixteen. I BETTER GET CARDS BITCHES! =)

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 02:39:46 GMT

Bah. Aidan is here. He's sitting next to me. He says hi.

13 days til my birthday, 12 til AJ is home. ♥

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 17:32:28 GMT

I hate my grandma. Kortnie told me I lost weight and when I told my grandma she laughed and said "I DON'T THINK SO!" Stupid bitch.

P.S. If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.
Then post this in your journal. See what people remember about you...

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 02:14:51 GMT

huskrbro_1 : can i tell you something?
lovingnightmare : what
huskrbro_1 : dont tell anybody but i kinda like you
lovingnightmare : -gasp!-
lovingnightmare : really?
huskrbro_1 : yea
lovingnightmare : Well, I kinda like you too.
huskrbro_1 : i was wondering if i could take you out to dinner sometime?
lovingnightmare : Sure!
huskrbro_1 : really?
lovingnightmare : Yeah
huskrbro_1 : like totally cool
lovingnightmare : omg! like, yeah!
huskrbro_1 : you are great your freind Ashley was right about you
lovingnightmare : what?
huskrbro_1 : when i first met you Ashley was the one who introduced us and she said you were a great person
lovingnightmare : Yeah.
huskrbro_1 : she was right all the damn way
lovingnightmare : and what? you didnt believe it?
huskrbro_1 : yea i believed it just not as much as i do now
huskrbro_1 : what did she say about me?
lovingnightmare : "He's a great guy. You guys would be cute together if he wasnt dating a whore"
lovingnightmare : =)
huskrbro_1 : really?
huskrbro_1 : wow
lovingnightmare : Yup
huskrbro_1 : crazy
lovingnightmare : Yeah, and look where we are now.
huskrbro_1 : yea crazy aint it?
lovingnightmare : a year and a half.
lovingnightmare : almost a year and seven months
huskrbro_1 : i never thought i would be with you this long
lovingnightmare : i didnt either, i just hoped so.
huskrbro_1 : as bad as that sounds
huskrbro_1 : really?
lovingnightmare : I pretty much loved you since the first time I talked to you.
lovingnightmare : -shrug-
huskrbro_1 : when you would barely give me a kiss
lovingnightmare : Nervousness.
huskrbro_1 : now look at you
lovingnightmare : I still get nervous around you sometimes, then I tell myself to shut the fuck up.
huskrbro_1 : why the hell do you get nervous around me?
lovingnightmare : I don't know.
huskrbro_1 : you need not worry
lovingnightmare : This I know
huskrbro_1 : good then you know I love you right
lovingnightmare : Yup
lovingnightmare : And you sure as hell know I love you.
huskrbro_1 : yea i do thats be clearly told to me
lovingnightmare : -nods-
huskrbro_1 : alright baby i gotta get off but i will call you later
lovingnightmare : Alright
huskrbro_1 : I Love You
lovingnightmare : I love you too.

He's amazing. ♥♥♥

Bright Eyes/The Faint.

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 17:21:48 GMT

AMAZINGAMAZINGAMAZING.

the concert was awesome. i don't feel like typing a lot of details....

...but I will. =)

After Airbourne Audio performed, The Faint came on. They were amazing live. I like them even more then I used to now.

But what I was there for was Bright Eyes. Ladies and Gentlemen, Conor Oberst is so amazing I can't put it into words. And I have a celebricrush on him. =X He sounded amazing live. (I'm saying amazing a lot, and I probably will more.)I wish I would have taken pictures. =/ I forgot my camera at home cuz I'm lame like that.

Well anyway, I'm going into town, so later much kiddos.

Allan Ray, you complete me. ♥

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 17:29:13 GMT

As much as I hate to say this, I was reading Jeremiah's xanga and he made a good point.

The kid's smart, he just does really dumb things. Aside from lying all the time and being really easily influenced by others, he's a good guy. I take back everything I've ever said about him.

Not that any of you people even know who Jeremiah is, but if he or one of his friends reads this, eh, he'll know.

anyway, bye kiddos. ♥

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 18:39:23 GMT

oh yeah, all my xanga friends were freaking out because i didnt pay enough attention to them, so i guess i'm back at xanga. i'm still updating here in more detail because crappy people read my xanga. heh.

i'm laughing a lot right now.

HAHAHA BITCH YOU LOST YOUR FRIEND!!! YOU STUPID ASS BITCH, IT'S NO WONDER! WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND! Eat yourself and die? Kthnx.

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 17:51:35 GMT

AHHH!!

I've been in Tehas since like, thursday. O.o Nothings really new.

OH WAIT!

We have my birthday party planned and such! YAY!

AND...

AJ'S HOME ON THE 25TH!

ahem. end post.

Thu, 26 May 2005 00:01:44 GMT

Allan Ray Albert Johnson, I love you. =)

/end post.

Tue, 24 May 2005 21:57:46 GMT

Didnt feel like updating yesterday. I'm bored. School is boring. I miss AJ. I miss MJ. I miss Tamra. Blah.

Finals week= ick. <|3

Yay for only one final tomorrow! =) Sleep in until 1:00! Whoo!

I need to pee really bad.

Leave comments. Kbye.

Mon, 23 May 2005 12:10:34 GMT

I figured I should update.

It's been a week yesterday for 2 things.

1) Tamra Dee leaving us.
2) AJ calling me.

Both of which suck. Graduation was on Friday and everyone... well... graduated. I talked to Josh through it a lot. It was funny cuz I was sitting with the choir and he was in the stands next to the choir and we were texting each other and laughing. It was pretty retarded. Oh well. Josh is an awesome kid. I feel so bad for him though. I can't imagine losing AJ, especially the way Josh lost Tamra. =/

Well I need to go to school now, so I'll write later.

Fri, 20 May 2005 02:00:29 GMT

The Goodbye Song

Wed, 18 May 2005 21:54:59 GMT

So this song... I heard it at the choir banquet a few days ago and it's stuck in my head. I fell in love with it.

Tamra's funeral is tomorrow. Baggerly Funeral Home, 2:00pm. =/
Lovely. I'm a taxi there.

The Goodbye Song By: Stephen Speaks
And everytime, I think of you
I'll remember all the goods times that we've had
And everytime, I sing this toon
I will laugh, I will cry, I will close my eyes
Cause I know that it wont be long

Till we sing, We will rise
We will laugh away the night
And the good times will never end
When we meet again

And im gonna be somewhat lonely
Cause you know no one could ever fill your shoes
And as sharp as i am
You have taught me how to be a stronger man
And i look foward till the day i learn again

Till we sing, We will rise
We will laugh away the night
And i know that it wont be long
Untill we meet again

Though i wish i were with you now
I know that theres reason for space
I can dream of memories your writing down
And i look foward to the day
And the smile on your face

We will sing
We will rise
We might cry and we might fight
And the good times will never end

We will laugh
We'll relax
We'll reflect on the years we've passed
And i know that it wont be long
Untill we meet again

And everytime i think of you

Wed, 18 May 2005 02:25:21 GMT

this was a crazy week, and it's only tuesday.

plans/overlook/last 2 days

monday- found out about tamra. =/
tuesday- slept until 10:30, got to school at 11:30, left during lunch at 12:30, got home, slept til 5:30.
wednesday- no plans yet.
thursday- tamra's funeral.
friday- graduation
saturday- kelley's party.
sunday- texas.

so you know if i dont update.

Mon, 16 May 2005 21:54:27 GMT

R.I.P. Tamra Colvin.
always in our hearts

So today I went to school, complaining as normal, and with about five minutes left in first hour there was an announcement. "Duncan's fourth hour choir please report to the choir room." Now, since there's a concert tonight I was like "Hmm, probably rehersal.

Boy was I wrong.

I go in there and see Mr. Duncan about to cry. So I go over to Kaylee and ask her what's going on. "I'm not really sure yet, someone died." I was thinking it was Mr. Sweet or something because he wasn't anywhere around and I was already about to cry. "Tamra." She finally told me. I just kind of sat down on the floor in shock, while the rest of my class filed in. That's when Mr. Duncan told us.

Basically, he didn't want us to hear it over the intercom and freak out in class, so him and Dr. Story told us exactally what happend. Apparently Tamra and her boyfriend were over at Dorothy's house with Shea and Shea's boyfriend. Tamra and her boyfriend were out on the hammock. The hammock was tied to a dead tree. I'm not really sure if it was the tree that snapped or just a really big branch, but either way it fell on Tamra and her boyfriend. Tamra's boyfriend made it out with I think a broken wrist and a concussion, Tamra wasn't so lucky. They took her to the hospital around 9:30, and she was pronounced dead at 11:30.

Dr. Story announced it over the intercom as well.

Now while you may not care, I do. I didn't know Tamra all that well, but she was my family. Everyone in choir is my family. While I may be a choir nerd (okay, I am) I really care about everyone in there, and when something bad happens to one of us, everyone knows about it. We have a concert tonight, and we've dedicated it to her. Tamra, you were such a sweetheart, and you were always making people smile, as well as you having an amazing singing voice. God bless your soul. <3

hmm

Sun, 15 May 2005 22:56:47 GMT

I kind of feel odd talking about this, but I'm confused.

Call it teenage horomones, but I'm attracted to some girls. O.o Yeah, I know, I'm the one that's always saying "THERES NO SUCH THING AS BI!". I'm not Bi. I'm straight. Just... curious maybe? Oh who fucking knows.

That was a waste of an entry.

love you guys.